Monday, April 26, 2010

Moving to WordPress

Well, I've moved the blog. WordPress made it very easy for me to import all of my posts, and so far I like all of the options laid out.

The new address is here-->

I'll be updating the look and features later on when I have time. Update your bookmarks, and I'll see you over at WordPress!

Blogger Comment Test

I really hate that Blogger doesn't have a "Reply to comment" option, so I added one. Maybe I'll try to import my blog to a service that has a better system, because I get the feeling that readers aren't seeing my replies to their comments.

If you're reading this from Facebook, just ignore it; I'm just posting this so I can do a comment test.

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Stressed Out.

I'm really tired. I've been tired a lot lately. I have JET forms to get done, people to call, places to go, things to buy.

Been doing a lot of praying that God gets me through the next few weeks, one day at a time.

A thought came to me a few days ago: Even if JET puts me out there in the boondocks, it's still much closer to Tokyo than if I stayed here. It's also easier for me to save money if there's nothing to spend it on.

We still have to see, though. Printer ink to buy today, chest x-ray to get tomorrow, fingerprints on Friday. It'll all happen, one day at a time.

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

Next Stage.

This is kind of late...I've been really busy lately, juggling modeling and school and Bible study.

Last Thursday, I was on a dinner cruise by the Waterfront with my friend, who was appointed a few months ago to be a Global Ambassador for the D.C. Cherry Blossom Festival. It was a lot fun; we danced, ate good food, and got to talk to some nice people. I used my friend's phone to check my e-mail, because I was supposed to be finding out about the results for JET that evening.

I got in.

My submission of required forms will confirm my acceptance into the program. I will be leaving for Japan on July 31st.

It really is bittersweet. That day is my dad's birthday. It's also during the weekend of Otakon, which I had been hoping to attend this year. Ever since I returned to the U.S., I had become more and more comfortable with the idea of staying here. I got to spend more time with my friends, caught up with others, established modeling as a new hobby...and now I'm leaving again. And there's no guarantee I'll be placed in a desirable area in Japan. I'll have to learn to deal with my surroundings.

But as I said to my friend, "We can't always do what we want to do, especially not just coming out of college." With this economy, getting a "fun" job really shouldn't be as much of a priority as getting a job in the first place. Once I find out where I will be placed, I should be fortunate that I've secured a source of income at all, and a decent one at that.

We'll see where life takes me. For now, I need to finish up my semester and enjoy the time I have left with my friends.

Monday, April 5, 2010

A Possible Fork in the Road.

When the JET Interview committee asked me, "If we place you in a rural area contrary to your preferences, how would you deal with that?" I said that I trusted JET to place everyone according to their best judgment, and that "What happens, happens."

In my mind, I was thinking that being placed in a rural area is NOT what I wanted, but that it would probably be better than staying in the States.

I find out about my position in the JET application process this week. This stage is only for notification of acceptance, not for placement. Which means that, if I get into JET, I won't actually know about my placement until May or June.

For a long time I didn't think I'd have any opportunities if I stayed here in Maryland, so I had my heart set on getting into JET. But a lot of things have been coming up. Pop Show Japan, a monthly J-Pop event, has started up recently at Club Orpheus in Baltimore. I attended a few weeks ago and had a lot of fun. And of course, Otakon is the same weekend as the JET candidates' departure date. I really missed being at Otakon last year, mostly for cosplay. Katsucon was a good substitute, but it was really cold and it felt much shorter than Otakon--probably because I usually didn't get to the con until around 11am or 1pm at the latest each day.

And now, modeling. I started back up again, and I've had two photoshoots so far this year. I have two more possibly coming up this weekend, another next Saturday, and more in the future. I'm building up my portfolio for now, but it's possible that I could actually be going somewhere with this. Sure, I could model in Japan, but the opportunities are very slim if I'm in the middle of nowhere.

All I can do is pray and wonder what JET has decided. It's rare that my future has been this uncertain to me; all of my life I've pretty much been given one opportunity at a time: attending Eleanor Roosevelt High School, getting into the University of Maryland, and studying abroad in Japan. I never doubted that I would get those opportunities, and I didn't really have strong alternatives in case I didn't make it. This time, I don't know what I want more--JET, which is certain, or a chance to shape my own future here in the States (with the intention of returning to Japan one day, of course).